Still Learning!

I just posted an entry that I wrote and chronicled during the summer. Now it is out of order... I am so Sheldon! Blessings to those who really want to see things listed in order and find it is impossible to have it so : /

This IS the first day of the rest of my life!

This is me looking at my desk area wondering what the heck I'm gonna do with all that stuff???

Games... That cart has games to use. Where should I put them?

I am at my desk in school getting geared up for a new year. I am so sure that it will be better than last year! I pray that God will grant me peace and serenity during the year. 

StepxStep

I am in a total panic... ok, a total panic is a bit melodramatic, but the wiggle and quiver inside my bones says to me that there is something brewing deep within my soul, and God is not revealing it to me in a giant rush. I am seeing there are things that are going together, like the crumbs Hansel and Gretel left along the path, but I am not able to connect them yet... I have been led to Step into my Shoes with Compassion International... I have my own ministry I call StepxStep that God opened to my heart in June of 2012. I know He is calling me to "Read" and to "Learn" and to "Preach"... those words EXACTLY! but (yes, my big 'but' is getting in the way) I do not know how to assemble what I have and where to go from here. I have read a book called REVOLUTION IN WORLD MISSIONS by K. P. Yohannan, excellent book. I am trying to assemble my thoughts, my Bible, my journalling. I want to begin a web site for the ministry, and somehow register it as an official ministry, but I do not know where to turn. I am not willing to compromise, as I feel the Methodist Church calls me to, but I want to keep teaching Sunday school and leading Bible studies. I also am a public school teacher and that gets in my way too, but I believe that God has called me to stick with it because it will be how my ministry is financed. Oh Father help me to follow yYou where You call me to fo and to do as you ask me to do, I am a wreck and I am not sure where to turn right at this momwnt, The above prayer, typed as I bowed my head, indicates that I have no typing skills without looking at my fingers. That too is how I view my ministry. I have no ministry without calling on other preachers (specifically my MacArthur Study Bible). I trust my LORD with all of my heart and soul and mind. I know He will lead me to the right words when it is necessary. I am not the best teacher, parent, facilitator, Christian, but I don't see others getting out there to do it. I AM, however, obedient, in LOVE, and willing to stepxstep... Thank you for sending Jenn's plea at the perfect moment!

Pulling Pulling in my Heart...

I am not sure what in the heck is going on. My mind and my heart are feeling stretched and pulled out of a comfortable place. I feel like I need to scream but I'm not sure why! Groaning is the feeling I am feeling deep deeep deeeep within my being... I wish I had someone to share it with. It is like I am needing to pull my blanket deep around my shoulders and block out the world and the outside. I am not understanding what it all means.

Talk, Talk, Talk...

I am in the mood to just talk my head off... not to anyone in particular, just talk. Blah.blah.blah. I have been getting ready to return to work. That takes a lot of thought, considering I have been on a brain-cation since May 2014. I think it began on May 27th, but I could be wrong, I do tend to forget dates, days & years... I am really stalled out right now, though... I was doing the "PlANK" (which I mentioned in an earlier post) and I messed up my back. I messed it up bad enough to put myself out of commission for three days. Three days is an eternity when you are preparing to return to school the day after you fly back from vacation. Which, by the way, begins on Thursday (flight out at 6:40 a.m.) and today is Monday and you need to: #1 see the chiropractor to have him reassemble your frame #2 clean the house because food is growing hair and you stepped on nuggets you cannot reach because your back is out and you can't lift the vacuum to sweep because your back is out, and you can't push the vacuum because your back is out... #3 wash clothing because, although those machines in the airport can see through your clothing, you still need to be wearing clothing to protect the innocent and walk through the airport without too much laughing, and to maintain what dignity I did not lose gimping around #4 lead Bible study (and finish it up) #5 do the dishes; o.k., so the dish washer washes the dishes, but the momma loads the dish washer... nuff said #6 pack #7-#? will come to me : ) #7 do more work in my classroom including but limited to: storing games, storing boxes, making schedules, planning for teaching, hanging posters #8

Day one: PLANK

I did the plank this morning day one of the challenge and my back is aching. I may have pushed by trying to do two twenty second holds... Really, twenty, that is two-oh, 2-0! seconds! Oh my I am a toad! %/