Amazing Life

I have been watching this site for a while from my phone, but found I could not add a new post. I read the old posts and was amazed at my own insight. I really think that writing down thoughts and feelings makes sense to me...it helps me to sort out my life and remember where I have been.

I really think that God is amazing in the fact that He has honored me and allowed me to live the life that I have. I know that much of my life has been spent sorting out the trash from treasure and I think I am living in the treasure part at this time.

I came home today and read. I read the last two chapters of my book. I did not need to stay after school to work with students. I am all but caught up on my grading. I have a few things to do, but this year I get to live my life. I am not all consumed by my job. My job; John says do what I get paid to do So, I do and I also have time to live, last year, not so much.

I recently posed the question, "Do we have the right to live our lives for ourselves or are we obligated to serve Jesus?" I honestly believe that not all are called to serve, but I feel it very strongly. I believe I am to serve in any way I can. Now, the trick is to find the way that I can be of the most service to Jesus. I am willing to sacrifice, but I am not like a good friend and make food and invite others and give of myself. So while I feel called to serve, I also know that I have limits. Hmmm, are we allowed to have limits?

I read in a news article (like Ann Landers) If you did it over again, would you have children? The people who said yes willingly gave some type of identifying information while the people who said no with held their info... interesting. I personally would have, knowing what I know now, had as many children as my body would allow. I would have started at 18 and had bunches. I wonder if I am to foster or adopt. My heart says yes///no, my mind says no///yes...I am completely confused, so I do nothing, I do nothing, I do nothing...